Disappointed.

at guys from key club banquet. I'll get over it soon. But before, sneaking christina and hyeok was funn(x teeeheee, funfunfun being fatties at pho<3

Despiting

life itself. It's so hard.. we see many people around with smiles on their face, but the truth is, they're having some trouble underneath. Yeahyeahyeah, it's the truth. Tehehee. Cutie at 11. That's all I have to say(: Bye<4

Friends for life.

Awww, guys thanks, on the blog before the rollercoaster ones(= I really love you guys truly. I bet you if I didn't have you guys, I would have seriously fallen apart. Okay, I'm doing better. I think I overreact sometimes--x ANYWAYS, HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK:

1)Yesterday, there was a 5.0 earthquake that hit Los Angeles
2)Aprille had it on video, she was recording herself clean her room
3)My brother ran like a girl to hide under the table
4)Susie and Kimbum saw this through webcam
5)Susie thought it was her closet door--x
6)My mom was waving her hands in the air
7)My mom yelled at me for yelling loudly
8)Nick knocked out -_______-
9)Kimbum has a cut on his forehead because his lightstand fell :D
10)Klare and I almost kissed saying 'You're hot' LONG STORY<3


AHHAHAHAHAAA! I hope you guys feel better if you got hurt. Hehe, one freak of an earthquake. Remember the one during the summer? I was so scared. I was home alone with my brother for the first time in my life, too--x WoWoWoW (: Mmm, today was an up-day. Thankyouguysforallthesupport<3

Rollercoaster.

Life is a rollercoaster. Mine is in the bottom trying to make it to the top! With all the support from my friends, I love you guys, I'm doing okay I guess. Getting By(: Love you guys SO MUCH. Especially with my boy drama. Hehehe, love you guys. MWAMWAH<3

Looking Back.

I look back at this freshman year and it's been freaking crazy maayne. Right now, I wish everything was the same before high school came. I guess I can say that I changed, but not in a good way.. like as in get hyper? I don't use my phone as much I used to anymore, and I call more often because I can't text while I do HW and stuff. I cut my hair, and maybe that was my sense of pride and confidence I had. It got chopped in half. I have low self esteem even more nowadays. I try to regain everything I lost, and try to fix things, but it isn't working out. What's wrong with me? Hedge, all the things I write is all emo-y. I need some vibrant person to come and help me become Jina Kim again.. God help me. Who reads these stuff anyways? Sorry, I vent so much.

Forget.

Did you forget that I was even alive? Did you forget.

OOB OOB. Egad, I have so much things to do. Just forget about the list I made earlier. I'm not even going to accomplish HALF the things. AHHG, i need to start staying in touch. &I should make up to esther, but I'm scared of what she'd tell me. Outside I look really tough, but in the inside I'm weak. Help me. Mmm, Cheer practice today, freaking tired though, we did salsa chachacha things. AHAHA, and like it hurted my stomach and I had baaaaad cramps. Tears were falling in 3rd period, cuhs I'm getting really emotional these days. I guess this is high school life. Welcome to life Jina. I have so much HW to do today, no lieeee. UGHH, and I have to write my freaking iSearch! UGH, even more frustrating because I don't even know WHAT to write about. She just told us, your rough draft is due on Thursday and im like.. O.O UGGGH, idk. I don't think imma be online today. Wish me luck on everything I do. Love you guys who actually supports me.

Wild Week.

Yesh, I had a wild week, I just walked around everywhere. I'm having problems with so many people right now and it's not even funny. I'm seeing life flash so fast between my eyes. I see my grades dropping to the letter B. I see that my future isn't so bright anymore. I wish all of it can really stop. Is this what we're created for? Sometimes, I question myself why am I even here. I'm learning reality everyday. Finding out so much things that I could have learned when I became a senior so I wouldn't care about it as much. But the truth is, I do care. I care for everything even though I say I don't. Inside, I secretly care for everything that's going on around me. I'm a hypocrite. Sorry guys.

Friday050809

PUAHAHAHA/ WOOWW. okay, school was school.. and like whatever. skip to end of school. Me and susie were supposed to play I guess, so we first went to the volleyball game, and little did we know that Randy and Clayton were playing at 4:00ish. So we watched Alysza give her happy birthday surprise to andy kil. It was preeetyyy cute(: Well, yeah. And uhm, after we got a ride to TC and blahblahblahh.. bought mother's day gift, did makeup at ULTA, and ate(= Mmmm.. yeah. Then we left Cebrina there and went to Susie's house. SORRY CEE! ): well, uhm.. Susie changed at her house. and she took her WET scarf to Sarang Church. What a dummay! (: Well, uhm. yeah. Played with her computer and stuff. and then off we were to SARANG! Well, susie's mom lost her way. and We drove east to west and back to east.. kindaish. Well, yeah. We arrived at Sarang. And we were like 0.0 all these people are freaking little kids. and we ditched. WOW, we're so bad. Well we walked to Berry Heaven and it was SUPER FAR. OMG, i hate you susiee! Well it's a ghetto place and all these Mexican people were there staring at us. So I called Susie and we were talking in  Korean until the light turned green, then we walked to the other side. MUAHA, and there was a freeway bridge, and inside its so LOUD, and we were walking .. and this car honked and Susie jumped up!(x HAHAHA! SO FUNNY! I should have recorded. After like 2 more people hollered at us cuhs we were wearing shorts.. I was like.. --x WOW. Anyways, we went to Berry Heaven, our destination, sat down. I ate yogurt and Susie finally finished putting in all her contacts from her old phone to her new one(: HAHAHA, uhm.. we waited for James Byun . Ehem SUSIE. And then Susie said, "He wants us to meet somewhere in the dead end." and we walked at 8:20PM! when it was dark and we almost peeeeeed in our pants. It was so scary.. !! Well, we got lost and stuff. And we couldn't find them and we were just looking around and then we found them. There were lots of people and i didn't know any! Except susie, she knew James. Well so we just went inside the KareokePlace (NoRaeBang) MUAHAH , and we sang for an hour and 10 minutes? $22. We split. During the time, the guys were telling us to go in that room, and we just wanted to be in our own room. and thennn, the guys were keep coming in our room. AND I CANT SING WHEN OTHER PEOPLE ID ONT KNOW ARE IN THE ROOM. so we wasted moneyy--x Well, I was singing "My Life Would Suck Without You" and wow, i was singing my HEART out and the guys came. I was like O.O HOLYCOW. And we left to Grace Church after. Played in the Playground. Then walked to SevenEleven. Hectic dayyy.. and thennn I had to get home before 11PM and it was 10:10ish and I had to go back to Susie's house to get my bag there. and HER MOM WAS SO LATE! I WAS LIKE OMG WHERES YOUR MOM?! and she came at 10:40! and THANKGOD SHE BROUGHT MY BAG! i was so happy(: and she took me home. and MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: 10:53(= WOWOWOWOOWW, fun dayyy! LOL loveyoususieeeee<3

Quote of the dayyy

"Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together."

-KimBum.